Day 9.2

Well, there's good news and bad news.

Bad news first:  Having chocolate muffins in the house proved to be too difficult a temptation to resist, and I succumbed.

Twice.

Then I took the muffins to work and put them on my husband's desk so they can't tempt me any more.  Stupid muffins.

Good news:  As of Monday I was down 11.5 lbs in my first week!  Yay!!  And despite the muffin shenanigans I am holding steady.  I have resisted other temptations SO MANY TIMES, like tonight when I got the kids grilled cheese sandwiches at Jack-in-the-box and didn't buy a dessert for "them."  It so would have been mine.  And I didn't buy myself a burger and say that I'd "only eat the meat and cheese" because come on, I know I'm lying when I say that.  The bad food words (burger, fries, MINI CHURROS) were on my tongue and about to jump out of my mouth when I placed the order, but then instead out came, "Just a side salad."

For reals.

My husband (curse him!) even bought my favorite microwave popcorn and popped and ate a bag, and I didn't have any or go pop my own.  This is SERIOUSLY strong of me.  That popcorn is the primary reason why I didn't start the diet much sooner.  My nightly bag of popcorn has been something I'd look forward to all day and one of the foods I miss the most.

I'm not saying it's easy or that I don't mess up sometimes, but I'm not letting myself be easily sabotaged.  I really, really want this and I'm trying so hard.  I know it will work if I just do it.